I’m not feeling the need to dwell on the past weekend. But a few brief inserts won’t hurt, riight?

I must say, Auditions was quite tiring, and exhausting. I miss dancing that hard, and that full out.

I’m blessed to be a part of this new experience, new family. Its been 24 hours, and so far everyone is extremely nice and welcoming.

Pretty damn excited for the rest of the season now.

It’s so crazy…

The past four years, I was so used to one style, one team. And now, I’m out, and found a new team. I’m so thankful, and so excited.

With that said..

New year, new team,

New hopes, big dreams.

Congrats to the new Family of 220 Second To None 2010-2011! Let our journey start strong.

This weekend is definitely worth a blog. But, I have 2 more assignments, and 3 more quizzes due by 8 a.m.

So I’ll blog when completed.

Stay posted!

But we’ll see if it’s worth a blog tomorrow.

I went to work for a 10-230 shift. Work was okay. Ain’t nothing special. When I got off, I spoke to Lori on the phone chus I didn’t respond to her calls last night.. DAMMIT! One of the funniest voicemails hands down! We talked it up for a while talking about a lot of things. My phone died, and wouldn’t function for 30 minutes! Forreal.. Was hungry. Asked my mom to take me somewhere, instead she showed me everything we had in the house -___- Made me some oatmeal. But being mom, she always does this

Me : Can you take me to get food? There’s no Ulam.

Mom : There’s plenty! Look! *Shows me every damn thing we got

Me : -___- FINE.

15-30 mins later

Mom (Feels bad/guilty) : I’m going to the store! You like go?

OMG.. She ALWAYS does this to me!! HAHAHA. Soo confusing…

So we went to Seafood City chus Lola was having a party at the Senior Citizen Center. She was gunna buy the old fashion Barong (Spelling, sowee) Dress, but they didn’t fit. Got some Nanners, Talapia, and Aloe! Went to New Manila for Halo-Halo and my Lunch. Tocino, BBQ and Lumpia. Nom Nom. Went home to get ready. Emma picked me up around 650 and we went to class. Had a Vocab run through, and it was 2 pages front and back. We got through only 2 lists. -___- So much words! BUUUT our Quiz got moved to Thursday!! HALLAAAH! Went home in time to watch Lala’s Full-court wedding, Jersey Shore, and The Fabulous life.

Doode. College is totally better then high school. I like How I’m busy everyday, but it’s fairly balanced between School and Work. I have long enough Gaps for classes for me to NOT be over school, yet. AAAAND

NO SCHOOL ON FRIDAY!! :D

This week definitely turned out better than I thought. And hopefully, it’ll only get better from here.. HOPEFULLY.. =\

PAYDAY TOMORROW!! I want to get my industrial fixed.. To bad everyone already got their piercings.. I woulda gone with them Waah.. We’ll see what this weekend has in store for me.  I have a few plans, but a lot of hope.

Good night yalls!

F.Y.I. My professor is deaf.

*Halcott explaining the difference between the sign for “Sea Turtles” and “Turtle”

*Writes “Sea Turtle” on the board.

Brandon Yells out loud : A TORTOISE!!! A TORTOISE!! 

MY PROFESSOR IS DEAF..

*Halcott writes “Sea Cow” on board

Dovanna yells out loud : A MANATEE!! MANATEE!!

That was seriously one of the most stupidest things I’ve experienced in my life.. I mean, the dude’s deaf! So why ya yellin?!

It’s depressing how people can forget their roots. The ones who started it all. The ones who brought you up to where you are right now. The ones who gave you so many changes. The beginning.

You’re fucking roots.. How can you disrespect that?

It’s just.. A bad feeling to see people go through so much. Whether people passed judgment upon, or they simply put themselves in their own sticky situation. The least you can do is show you care for the family that who opened your eyes to everything. To the family that honestly made you who you are from day one.

We taught you dedication. We taught you discipline. But we never taught you ignorance. And it’s obvious that’s a life lesson you carry for your everyday living.

I gave you opportunities. I saw hope, and changes. But I refuse to say that I held you under my wings, under my time, under my team. So you can go ahead and put us Number 2 on your list. You can go ahead and say all the titles you’ve “Deserved.” Real people know the Real Truth. Older heads don’t talk chus we hate. Older heads talk chus we know. And trust, we new since day one you would pull something like this, we ain’t stupid. We care for our legacy. That’s why we don’t approve of any actions you’ve been taking this whole year.

You’re blessed. But you’ve been taking your prayers for granted. You’re lucky, but you throw away all your charms.

And Last Thing

You’re foolish for being so blind.

Wednesday September 22nd, 2010

Woke up early this morning, chus I couldn’t go back to sleep for the last 20 minutes until my snoozer would go off. LAAMES! Rolled up to Mesa. Cooch, Benice and I went to Starbucks. Yumms. We went to the LRC  but all the group studies were taken. We final went into the open one but the internet wouldn’t work!! So we just listened to LeAnn Rhymes and Trey Songz. Walked into Humanities late, again. What’eer. I knocked out chus we didn’t have our book again. Went to Psychology class and learned about The Male and Female Anatomy. Girl’s body parts are really difficult. Hallelujah for being a guy. Lunch time came, and we ate at the new Costco! Literally 3 minutes away from the school. Happy as fuuck, you don’t even know! Hotdog with onions, Raspberry Iced Tea, and a Hand Dipped Ice Cream Bar with Almonds.. Y-U-M! Sat and talked. Cooch, Benice and I of course got rowdy and loud.. HATERS. Went back to the school to get ready, and to meet early. Went to Dance early to prepare for our group test. I like my group, I think we had a strong group of 6. Played the iKAF game, and Ninja with the Mira Mesa kids. COMP SEASON OR WHAT?! Went in for group tests. That shit was pretty funny!! Everyone has some dope ass ideas. Class ended and I went to Wednesday Night to finish blocking with Joswa. Afterwords, a few of us went to Bolsa! FUCKYEAPHO! I looooove how Auntie knows the way I like my Pho. She already KNOWS my order. Good laughs, and good company. Came home and watched the last 30 minutes of High School Musical 3.. I fucking miss my Senior family.. =\ But We’ll reunite. Fer sures..

In response to :

JANNEL REYES!! Trey Songz is fucking amazing. I never get tired of his work. LETS GO TO HIS CONCERT IN VEGAS!!

And since you shared your piercing story here’s an update on my Industrial.

It’s fucking gross, honest. I just realized yesterday that it’s pierced in a way I didn’t want it to be. The way I wanted mine was so that I got 2 cartilage holes pierced, and the bar is clearly visable.

How is mine pierced you ask? Yes, I do have 2 cartilage pierced BUUUT half the bar is pierced inside my ear. Yeee. You can only see half the bar, the other half is inside my ear. FUCKING NASTY,YA?! So it’s like ripping my skin since it’s raised.. I was wondering why it was so sore still!? 2 holes, I can handle. But a bar inside my ear?! No wonder why I ain’t over the pain yet..

I’m planning to just get one whole redone, so it’s cheaper. I want it ASAP though, chus it looks really gross right now. Whatevs, cannot be mad, at least I got it done, I’m still happy.

I kind of know where I stand in my classes are far as grades are concerned.. and Online Math96 SUCKS… Dammit.. I’m most def taking math in a classroom for the rest of my life..

Yaay for the weekend. I’m looking forward from here on out. We’ll see what I can do within the next few months. I’m planning to accomplish a lot. I like college life. High school is over rated. As far as the classes, and scheduling goes.. But I miss seeing the same people I’ve known for my whole teenage life. I miss knowing that no matter, this shit is pretty easy. College, everything is on you, and Professors can care less about what you need. So stay on top of your shit kiddos!!

5 days down, 25 more to go.

Was a great day overall.

Tuesday September 21st, 2010.

Started my morning off by taking my permit test. Yaay for passing! Finally.. sheesh!! Went to Goldilocks so my mom can buy food for her coworkers. I got dropped off at Hometown Buffet for Josia’s Birthday Lunch. Met with Josia. Then Seth, Nikki, Eloi, Brittney, and Jasmine came!! We just ate and talk. I miss mah babies… =’[ Emma picked me up to head over to Hooters to kick it with the J clan. Sat down and they did the unlimited wings. Yumms. Noticed that my industrial is pierced the way I didn’t want it to be.. =\ Ate and stayed there for a looong time. Then Emma and I went to the school to meet with Jayna for a homework session. Jayna and I talked about.. well our “Future” in a way. I’m glad to hear we’re on the same page, literally. Stayed in the lobby talking for 45 minutes about the topic. ASL started and we got bombarded by vocabulary!! Oh well, ASL is so fun!! Got a B on my test again.. So far I think I’m a B student in that class. Waah! Whatevs. Came home and showed pops and kuya the permit test. Showered and now here I am.

Reflection  :

I’m glad I got to speak to Jayna today. This was a much needed discussion. We pretty much thought about the same thing, and the same topic. I think I’m ready. I think I’m definite.  My time is has yet to come to stop what I love to do. Now, I just got to see how to fit everything in my schedule..

Today made me feel really good. Except the fact my industrial is wrong, which I’m planning to fix very soon.

I think it’s time I put myself back out there. I have a few things lined up for me this week, but nothing is fer sure.. I’m quite hesitant honest..

But I do miss that feeling..

We’ll see. I have a few days to decide.

Good night Tumblr, this was just a short insert from me real quick.

I’ve done some pretty fucked up stuff, but never have I fell into deeper shit than I am in now. But only thing I can do I just hope for the best.

I’m scared. Honest. But hey, I gotta deal with certain things. Honest, it wasn’t my fault but it was my decision to go out. I did everything right. I guess it was the wrong place, and the wrong time.

Monday will be the day, until then I can only hope for the best.

I”m trying to keep calm, and just preparing for whatever the consequences are. But I’m scooping up some maad hours from now on. We’ll see how it goes.

Thanks to everyone who was there for me today, I think with your guys’ company set me in the correct mindset, and correct attitude.

I’m thankful that we are both safe, and that the other family is willing to look past this.

I’m just hoping that somehow, things go alright.

Today, I thought things were going fine. I thought wrong. Bump in the road I guess, but never one to forget.

The time is now to better myself in my lifestyle. Yesterday should be my last fault. I’ll do my best to keep myself out of trouble fer sure..

Good night all.

ASHLEY TISDALE BEAT PUSSYCAT DOLLS ON THE MAXIM HOT 100?!?!

My thoughts recently are everywhere.. I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing, or thinking.

1) Work has been so great to me. I’m sad that nearly 50% of the O.G. cast of store #127 has/going to quit. I miss the O.G. Fam, forreal. We started together, and I wanted to end together. But I understand that this is life now. If you don’t like your job, then don’t work there. But for me, I love it. Though I’m adjusting to the changes, This is something I plan on doing for a loong time. I’m always shocked with what I’m capable of doing there. Somehow, I do so much better than I expect. And the best thing, People like me, and I like them. So all works out! I’m glad I can work in an environment where :

1)Customer Service is a MUST

2) Dress code is not strict at all

3) A friendly environment  not only with the co workers, but managers, leads and other Tilly’s stores.

If I’m good at something, and I can see myself being a big contribution, I’ll commit, no lie.

End of the month 40% off shopping spree?! Can’t Fucking Wait! 143, I lalaloveTilly’s!

2) I’ve been with the family more often, and I like the feeling. I miss being around them. I feel like I’m missing out on the Kids lives, though they are not my kids, I want to be a supportive Uncle. My brother and sister are actually really funny. We’re all dorky, stupid and funny. Got that IDGAF attitude,a and we looove talking shit, gossiping, putting each other on blast, and using mom and pop’s monaay!

3) I haven’t seen my friends to often, but that don’t mean I’m not thinking about them. I miss you all dearly. Name calling is not necessary for this blog. If you’re agreeing, interested, or smiling during this entry, then you’re one of the ones. I’m sorry I’m not able to devote time out of my day to you guys, but you know I would in a heart beat. I love you all. Don’t fucking worry, I’m still here!!

Things to keep you on your toes :

- A check up would be fine. Ya know like old times. But you’re prolly saying the same thing, which is why it’s like this.

- Distance is nothing. Effort is everything.

- I’m still figuring out ways to keep you out. You almost had us, but you fooling nobody.

- We should just fast forward to our future, the time we know it’s right for us.

There’s many things I’d blog about. But I’ll space em out so that the entries wont lag on for daays!

Back on that Daily School Schedule!!  Two more days of the week! :D

Friday September 3rd, 2010

Started my morning with some mental preparation. Today was finally the day I would quit the Movies. I went to Tilly’s to check my schedule first. The first thing someone said to me was :

“What’s up employee of the month?!”

And I was like wtf?! So Then everyone told me I got employee of the month. :D Hallah. Went to the back room to check my schedule. Came out to tell Vanessa about me quitting and she told me that if I can open my availabilities up, I should do it soon becuase they’re looking for a new Lead. Hrmms.. So I’m pretty happy about that. Walked over to the theaters and went into Sholan’s office.

I basically told her that the only thing that was keeping me from being happy there was that after 3 months, they never changed my APPROVED availabilities. Then we just lingered on about the topic. She understood, and told me I should write a two weeks notice, and date it from 2 weeks ago. She told me I’m leaving on good terms, so I can come back or still use the place as a reference.

Got out, and went with Jayna and Emma to KB Books to buy our ASL books. So much cheaper there! Pretty happy with that. Went to Mesa to buy the DVD we need, but the bookstore was closed. We went to get Jenny, and ate lunch at Costco.

They took me to work at 4, and I begain my half shift. Things went okay. It was actually a really boring shift. Before I left though, Kristin asked if I can open my availabilities, but in a “Joking, but I mean it” kinda way. So thoughts still linger in my head..

I left to meet Rudie and Lorraine. Rudie and I went to Denny’s for our meeting. I think that we have a great core team. Not chus it’s us six, and how experienced we are, But because tonight I got a chance to listen to each of our goals, ideas, and thoughts, and it feels good how we are all there to simply help and provide. To see 6 people get together and care for something that is not necessarily in our control makes me excited for the upcoming year. Working with these five will definitely being a good experience.

Tonight I came home with reassurance. Honestly, I lost some, but I earned some. Things are only going to get harder from here, most def. But I need to do what I want to do.

What do I want to do? 

- Have a successful first semester of College.

The company, the courses are already checked off. But my attempts, and efforts needs to be consistant.

- Continue to grow with my career.

I honestly plan on staying with Tilly’s for a while. It’s something that I love doing, so why the hell not?! Being told I’m “Good” at what I do only provides me more confidence. Who knows what offers I’ll get. But for now, I’m staying humble, and just continuing to work extremely hard.

-Being committed.

An online course is hard. I hate self teaching. But hey, it was the only way it can fit my schedule.

- Being more time efficient.

Become better at scheduling. Put the most important events up front, no matter. Be mature, and think as an adult. Horray for my planner!

- Don’t become a workaholic.

Remember you have a life as well. Everyone deserves a little time to enjoy others company.

There’s a lot of self improvment I need to do. I’m currently in the process. But these are to better myself, and only myself. I’m just tryna set myself in a better direction then I’ve been leading myself.

The beginning of September. I have a lot of plans for this month. We’ll see how I put through with it.

Good night all.

P.S. I miss you friends.. :’[